Trying to avoid the chest hurting, breath taking drop that comes on this roller coaster I am on.
This isn’t a depressing post.. I’m just a little confused. Not sure what’s going on or how to respond to different things going on in my life. I mean I’m happy that these things are happening… But kinda waiting for some of the happy things to crash. Haha I had a great weekend.
I hate being stuck in this gray area in life. I’m not a child or minor but I’m not a “stable” adult. It’s annoying. I never really pushed myself as a child or teenager and it is showing now. I feel my faith growing, but I’m not pushing for it to grow further. I’m still falling into my old patterns of sin and laziness. I am gaining weight due to my attitude of not caring. I have a lot of stress in my life right now and I try to cover it with a smile and laughter but inside it is eating away at me. Surrendering everything to God is hard. Haha life.
